You Are Not Hopeless!
I remember the feeling of hopelessness that haunted me during the darkest hours of my addiction. I had nowhere else to turn. I had noone who understood where I was in life. I had no hope to escape the addiction that held me.My hopelessness was fueled by the guilt of my mistakes. Every disappointed glance from my family members told me that I was a failure. Every time that I had failed in my children's life because I was busy "chasing a high" I told myself, "I am a miserable exuse for a parent." I began to identify myself by my failures.You are not what you are doing. When you put a needle in your arm or a crack pipe in you mouth, you convince yourself that you are a junkie or a meth-head. You begin to disassociate yourself from relationships that you have with everyone else because you have difficulty identifying yourself as a son or daughter.What you are doing is not really who you are. It is an illusion. Your lifestyle of addiction is not real life. You can break free from this "twilight zone" chaos and discover who you really are. You are one committed choice away from this chaos.God created you. God preplanned for you the good life. Addiction and chaos is not what God planned for you. Addiction is destroying everything valuable in your life-your family, your health, your financial future, maybe even your freedom.When I heard the truth about Jesus, I had a syringe in my shoe and cocaine in my pocket. My first husband was lying brain dead in an intensive care unit of the hospital after a drug overdose. As this preacher told me about a cross where Jesus paid for my mistakes with His life, I had a glimmer of hope. I asked God to help me change my life and yielded my heart to Jesus as the Lord of my life.As God led me out of addiction, I discovered, "Who I am is not based on what I did. Who I am is based on who God made me to be." Find out who you really are and determine to leave the chaos of addiction behind.